The Panda Will Walk Forward

I walk on like there's no tomorrow, but there is.

I take things day by day hoping that nothing will go wrong,

unfortunetly or eventually through out the day something does

I look forward to the future but cant see it clearly. I wonder if

or when it will become clear.

A weekend away is muchly needed for relaxation and family.

A night out is set up, to laugh and smile, but will i?

Dissapointment by someone loved and cared about deeply

still lurks in the back of my mind, I wish i could make it stop

Go away and hide and not be thought of again..but it's constantly

there for me to remember. I try so hard to be kind and caring towards

others and eventually I seem to get walked on and squiched by everyone

around me.

My feelings are hurt by the past few weeks.

All i can do is try for now just try

And Eventually The Panda Will Walk On!

The Funk

Everyone slips into the funk once in a while
This deep dark hole where you have no idea how far you have fallen
This funk is like the deadly disease cancer which take over your mind and then sooner or later your body.


at the end of the day you know you only want to crawl in your bed and be surrounded by
nothing but you deep dark endless thoughts.
The funk, the whole that rules your world until further notice.
IT gives you that deep dark damp feeling through your bones
where sometimes you think you cant go on.
The funk, and endless trap of darkness until you see that tiny shimmer of light and you
reach for it.
The funk that endless shadow that is hanging over your head and seems to never go away It's that place in the dark when you have your head under the cover and you never want to come out.
The Funk your deepest darkest fear.

Happiness

Happiness is just outside of my window.

Or Is happiness a little more like knockin on my door

Well happiness feels like alot like sorrow but i tell myself to let it go.

Happiness was never mine to hold like firecrackers on my headbord

You say be myself and think of no other, can this be me?

My mind is made up and the girls is gone, I think im on my way

It hurts to live today.

Iv been waiting here so long, i see the black cloads coming around again

When i loose myself i think of you, Happines.

I see the smile, and hear the laugh once and awhile and i remember

Its not just a dream.

A Lifetime

Sweet smiles, sweet dreams
Something I wish I had
The voice of readings is calm
I bring myself to the pleasures of the touch
and sweetness of what he brings.
The current pain had weighed me down long enough
Difficulty with feelings and emotions are slowly drifting.
I wake up in the morning and wonder why you dont think im
something better.
There is once in a lifetime and once in a while the differance between the
two is about a million miles.
He can hold any girl he likes, and fall in love at night but when he wakes in the morning he wonders why.
I hold on to what i have left of him, and what could have been.
Im looking for the distance when i might take the mile and leave it be
Which at this point i feel will never come, and never leave.
I was counting on forever but now i know.
Today i stand with a smile but who knows if that smile will remain until tomorrow.

the Grass Is Green

Oh, i once had something Something that was so good, Better than the last thing i touched Then I turned right around on that something And figured i didn't like that much
The grass is green but can you tell me, can you feel it, i just wanna feel it.

The grass is green But i think i stained my jeans and now everybody knows that i been in it
I am a believer But as i was standing In line, somebody took my place Yes, i'm a believer, never mind what they say I got so tired along the way
The grass is green But can you tell me, can you feel it, i just wanna feel it? the grass is green But i think i stained my jeans and now everybody knows thah i been in it
I've got a skeleton that's deeper than any closet And a bomb that i will drop on it But you opened up to me Til i could only see the beauty in your dishonesty.

The grass is green But can you tell me, can you feel it, you just wanna feel it.

The grass is green But it think i stained my jeans and now, baby, you can tell that i been in it
The grass is green but it's not what it seems cause when you think You want it you just need it Forget just what you need

Island Of Wonder

The man wrinkles his face but it's already wornThe coffee is sour and the shirt is torn But the smile is bigger then the atlantic sea, and it happends to bring out the atlantis in me! Island of wonder where do you come from Is it the way the sun hits my face or is it your memory which i cannot trace
And the church bell dongs a remarkable song and i swallow the salt, as i hum along The women she laughs as i pass her by in a patch work i left behind island of wonder, where do you come from?
Look at me i have so much pride I took my shoes off i ran i did not hide Look at me i have so much pride i will give me dowry for the prize Island of Wonder Where are you going Nobody knows it but it is snowing in the hearts and minds of every kind of Universe

Every kind of universe

Playing Games

Playing Games, Messing with the mind!

Ya gotta wonder why the mind game is at the top of the list.

Juggled emotions but dont dare to share.

They care but not enough to admit

The Mind Game

Maybe not so much a mind game, but a ball game..

3 Strikes and your out, foul ball try again.

You wait for the ball to come just at the right moment, not to early but not to late

The Mind Game

It takes brain power not ball power to make the perfect hit

Once you strike out the perfect hit is gone and you'll wonder what could have been

Perfect has fallen to the ground

The Mind Game Or The Ball Game?!