A Women

I am a women and the women who bring the brightness when one thinks there should no be.

I am a women!

That women is I.

I am the one who smiles when talked to, laughs when it's needed.

This women that Is I may not seem so fragile and need caring for.

Iam the women who with standed cracks and rough hands, but has

managed to take the rough hands and make them into something

that when the touch us made It feels like Silk and Satin.

I am the women you see each day with a smile on her face and carry's the weight of a hundred men on her shoulders.

I am a women who walks Stride by Stride. I am a women who thinks quietly or not at all.

Just another Worldwind!

**Im not a perfect girl, my hair doesn't always stay in place & i spill things alot. Im pretty clumsy & sometimes i have a broken heart. My friends and i sometimes fight & maybe some days nothing seems right, but when i think about it & take a step back i remember how amazing my life is & that maybe, just maybe I like being UNPERFECT...**


THERE ARE THINGS THAT WE DONT WANT TO HAPPEN BUT HAVE TO ACCEPT, THINGS WE DONT WANT TO KNOW BUT HAVE TO LEARN AND PEOPLE WE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT BUT HAVE TO LET GO.

I wish i was as invisable as you make me feel!

Why does a rose represent love, When a rose always dies?

Everyday peoople ask me "are you guys going out?"And you dont realize how painful it is to reply"No were just friends."

* Dreaming sometimes makes me Depressed.*

**Im not a perfect girl, my hair doesn't always stay in place & i spill things alot. Im pretty clumsy & sometimes i have a broken heart. My friends and i sometimes fight & maybe some days nothing seems right, but when i think about it & take a step back i remember how amazing my life is & that maybe, just maybe I like being UNPERFECT...**

Thoughts Racing Through My Head

Broken

Everyday i think of all the things that have gone wrong in my life;
Sometimes i think that you of all people are the one who is so wrong in my life.

When i look in the mirror i see someone i have no idea who she is, i try and thinkso hard how everything had gone so wrong.

Moving on does not seem to be an option as much as you tell me it is.

I know eventually I will move on but for now, where im at is where i belong.

I Dont love you but i do feel anger and frustration for you.

I call you a coward because you can not admit what you feel

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what the hell moving on doesnt feel so great but to sacrafice something that we have had for several years, it just doesnt seem worth it.

I lie 99.5% of the time i LOVE YOU, but shit never going to be loved back.

So Many Tears So Many Fears

So many tears so many fears.

My life has been in a downward spiral for sometime.

I feel nothing, as i once did. Tragedy has happen. Full of such regret and madness
The tears keep filling up.

Im sorry for the decisions I have made.

Im sorry that you are so incapable to showing love
if you could only see what I see when you see me!

Moving on is not an option. Im stuck between the living and the dead.
Mean and hateful thoughts fill my mind thoughts of hot water and blood.

I feel meaningless i feel that my place in this world is nowhere.
The events of these past few weeks have showen me that..you in all words are not perfect and never will be. For you to say you are uncapable to love or feel passion with just one is a crock.

I feel I will be mentally damaged forever or for always..you push and push Your love and willfullness to care is the fear overcomes you with words you couldnt possibly mean. But you spill them out as always I dont think you intentionally mean to plaster me to a billboard and throw darts it just happens.
I will never care for another like you care for I and I care for you.Impossible.

I lay awake everynight spilling tears onto my pillow case for you .And for that i live on for just one more day.
Caring and loving is a feeling and i know you feel that each and everytime you look into deep dark blue eyes and she smiles back at you with the willingness to share her deepest and darkest secrets about the past the present and maybe the future.
Sometimes the word I care isn't enough for some in hard times like these. The feeling

of someone close holding you like a blanket would is what someone really needs.

Life is not some game for you to play whenever and wherever you desire. It is real so be real show..break through that brick wall and feel and love, for you know deep down you will enjoy that feeling without being scared and confused with the emotions that spill about.

One can only deny there feelings for so long before the wall is broken down..you see this but are to afraid to walk into the light of joyfullness and passion with her.
Pushing and pushing will do no good under these trails and tribulations that we or she walked into. she loves you in ways she could not possibly discribe as a friend and a loves once. She maynot be the brightest of the stars or the smartest of the people, but she is her own and for that you are unwilling to see how truley special and one you are with her.
She's disappointed in her actions towards herself and the others. Sooner or later you may show your back and walk away as all the rest in her life do. A blanket you are no longer as you have pushed her off the edge.
Her life is like a branch half broken just waiting for the next big gust of wind to break her off and lay for maybe all of enternity. She may move on or someone may pick her up and move her but generally speaking we all know she will lay there forever or eternity.
Bring back the emotion and the caring the one she knows and loves, bring back the man who she once thought was so solid and yearned for that one.

Please dont leave me

I DONT KNOW IF I CAN YELL ANY LAUDER HOW MANY TIMES IV KICKED YOU OUTTA HERE?

OR SAID SOMETHING INSULTING?

I CAN BE SO MEAN WHEN I WANNA BE

I AM CAPABLE OF REALLY ANYTHING

I CAN CUT YOU INTO PEICES BUT MY HEART IS, BROKEN
PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME I ALWAYS SAY HOW MUCH I DONT NEED YOUbUT IT'S ALWAYS GONNA COME RIGHT BACK TO THIS
HOW DID I BECOME SO OBNOXIOUS WHAT IS IT WITH YOU THAT MAKES ME ACT LIKE THIS?

IV NEVER BEEN THIS NASTY CANT YOU TELL THAT THIS IS ALL JUST A CONTEST?

THE ONE THAT WINS WILL BE HIT THE HARDEST B UT BABY I DONT MEAN IT

I MEAN IT, I PROMISE
I FORGOT TO SAY OUT LOUD HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU REALLY ARE TO MEI CANT BE WITHOUT, YOUR MY PERFECT LITTLE PUNCHING BAGAND I NEED YOU, I'M SORRY
PLEASE, PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME

Your so Perfect

Oh no dont go changing, thats what you told me from the start thought you were something different, thats when it all just fell apart like your so perfect, and i cant measure up well im not perfect, just all messed up.

I was loosing myself to somebody else, but now i see i dont want topretend. It's not like I need somebody, telling me where i should goat night. Dont worry you'll find somebody to tell how to live there life, cause your so perfect and no one measures up, Yeah all by yourself your all messed up.

If Today Was The Last

MY BEST FRIEND GAVE ME THE BEST ADVICE HE SAID EACH DAY'S A GIFT AND NOT A GIVEN RIGHT, LEAVE NO STONE UNTURNED, LEAVE YOUR FEARS BEHIND, AND TRY TO TAKE THE PATH LESS TRAVELED BY. THAT THE THE FIRST STEP YOU TAKE IS THE LONGEST STRIDE.

IF TODAY WAS YOUR LAST DAYAND TOMORROW WAS TOO LATE COULD YOU SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY?WOULD YOU LIVE EACH MOMENT LIKE YOUR LAST LEAVE OLD PICTURES IN THE PAST DONATE EVERY DIME YOU HAVE? IF TODAY WAS YOUR LAST DAY.

WHAT IF?

AGAINTS THE GRAIN SHOULD BE A WAY OF LIFEWHATS WORTH THE PRIZE IS ALWAYS WORTH THE FIGHT EVERY SECOND COUNTS CUASE THERE'S NO SECOND TRYSO LIVE LIKE YOU'LL NEVER LIVE TWICEDONT TAKE THE FREE RIDE IN YOUR OWN LIFE.

IF TODAY WAS YOUR LAST DAYWOULD YOU MAKE YOUR MARK BY MEDING A BROKEN HEART? YOU KNOW IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO SHOOT FOR THE STARS REGARDLESS OF WHO YOU ARE SO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES CAUSE YOU CANT REWIND A MOMENT IN THIS LIFELET NOTHING STAND IN YOUR WAYCAUSE THE HANDS OF TIME ARE NEVER ON YOUR SIDE.

WOULD YOU CALL OLD FRIENDS YOU NEVER SEE? REMINISCE OF MEMORIES WOULD YOU FORGIVE YOUR ENEMIES WOULD YOU FIND THAT ONE YOU'RE DREAMIN OF?SWEAR UP AND DOWN TO GO ABOVE THAT YOU FINALLY FALL IN LOVE IF TODAY WAS YOUR LAST DAY

I HATE THIS PART

We're driving slow through the snow, and right now radio's all we can hear

now we aint talk since we left, it's so overdue.

It's cold outside but between us it's worsening
The world slows downbut my heart beats fast right now,

i know this is the partwhere the end starts.

I cant take it any longer thought that we were stronger,

all we do is linger, slipping through my fingersI dont want to try now.
Everyday, 7 takes the same routine, seems were bound by the laws of the same routine,

gotta talk to you before we go to sleep, but will we sleep once i tell youwhat's hurting me.

I know you'll ask me to hold on, and carry on like nothings wrong

but there is no more time for lies, cause i see sunset in your eyes

Sober

I dont want to be the girl who laughs the loudestOr the girl who never
wants to be alone. I dont wanna be there calling 4o'clock in the morning
Cause Im the only one in the world that wont be home.

The sun is blinding, I stayed up againI am finding that
that's not the way i want my story to end.
Im safe up high, nothing can touch mebut why do i feel the party's over?
No pain inside, your like perfectionso how do i feel this good sober.

I dont wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence.
The quiet scares me it screams the truth please dont tell me
that we had that conversationI wont remember, save your breath
cause whats the use.

The night is calling?And it whispers to me softly come and playIm falling
and if i let myself go im the only one to blame.
When it's good, then it's good, it's good till it goes bad
till you're trying to find the you that you once hadI have heard myself cry
never again.
Broken down in agony just trying to find a fit