Friday, October 17, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
This deep dark hole where you have no idea how far you have fallen
This funk is like the deadly disease cancer which take over your mind and then sooner or later your body.
at the end of the day you know you only want to crawl in your bed and be surrounded by
nothing but you deep dark endless thoughts.
The funk, the whole that rules your world until further notice.
IT gives you that deep dark damp feeling through your bones
where sometimes you think you cant go on.
The funk, and endless trap of darkness until you see that tiny shimmer of light and you
reach for it.
The funk that endless shadow that is hanging over your head and seems to never go away It's that place in the dark when you have your head under the cover and you never want to come out.
The Funk your deepest darkest fear.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Something I wish I had
The voice of readings is calm
I bring myself to the pleasures of the touch
and sweetness of what he brings.
The current pain had weighed me down long enough
Difficulty with feelings and emotions are slowly drifting.
I wake up in the morning and wonder why you dont think im
There is once in a lifetime and once in a while the differance between the
two is about a million miles.
He can hold any girl he likes, and fall in love at night but when he wakes in the morning he wonders why.
I hold on to what i have left of him, and what could have been.
Im looking for the distance when i might take the mile and leave it be
Which at this point i feel will never come, and never leave.
I was counting on forever but now i know.
Today i stand with a smile but who knows if that smile will remain until tomorrow.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
The grass is green but can you tell me, can you feel it, i just wanna feel it.
I am a believer But as i was standing In line, somebody took my place Yes, i'm a believer, never mind what they say I got so tired along the way
The grass is green But can you tell me, can you feel it, i just wanna feel it? the grass is green But i think i stained my jeans and now everybody knows thah i been in it
I've got a skeleton that's deeper than any closet And a bomb that i will drop on it But you opened up to me Til i could only see the beauty in your dishonesty.
The grass is green but it's not what it seems cause when you think You want it you just need it Forget just what you need
Monday, June 30, 2008
And the church bell dongs a remarkable song and i swallow the salt, as i hum along The women she laughs as i pass her by in a patch work i left behind island of wonder, where do you come from?
Look at me i have so much pride I took my shoes off i ran i did not hide Look at me i have so much pride i will give me dowry for the prize Island of Wonder Where are you going Nobody knows it but it is snowing in the hearts and minds of every kind of Universe
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
Rain drops fell as i stood under a dim street light smoking my ciggerette.
Intoxicated the city streets come to a freeze. hearing those peaceful raindrops
smashing on the wet streets, and for a moment everything was cool, clam and
I relaized I will be okey. And then reality kicked back In.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
The thought comes to mind should I get my day started or should I stay in bed all day and ponder about what your life could be like or would have been like!
I woke up this morning with the realization that what could have been is no longer
and what is, will always be. Reminding myself that what I wanted is no longer or was never.
I just need to let go and be who I was born to be, which I's really nothing at all.
Today Is a new start to something or maybe nothing at all, but in the end i know my life will always be taken day by day and step by step.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
that no-one ever reallys wants to feel, once
someone has something that hurt so deep it
feels like you've been split in two halfs.
Could you ever say it was really worth pushing
her away?! I shouldn't be there in the back of
your mind, when you need me the most i wont be
there and when i need you the most i wont be there.
You've made my heart turn black for the last time,
My bones have broken and and the tears have
Fallen. It hurts to breath everytime
your not next to me, but thats the the price you made me pay.
I wish you would say your dead inside like me.
I wanted more then this, i just couldn't tell you, i needed more
then you could give and i guess i got what i deserved. This pain
just wont stop. Make it stop. Just make it go away, make it END.
If being friends is all i can have i guess ill have to live with that
even though it's not what i want! Im who i really am when im with
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Just calm, Im waiting for something
big to happen and when it does the
world will know it. She seems restless lately
needs something more or something new!
But when the storm comes she and everyone
else will see it coming.
For now just calm. She says have some faith.
She leaves for now with anger and pain in her
heart. She tells the demon inside to stay down
be calm, be easy.
Friday, April 18, 2008
What ever happend to the real me, I'v changed.
I need to get back to the real me and fast.
A day of silance is just what i need...alone time is giving me
back the strength that i once had and to figure out this bind
that I'm In.
Where did it all go wrong?